About Paralyzed Emotions

  Hey there, and welcome to this new corner of my webpage.....For my first installment, I'm thinking about a parable God gave me a few years ago.  I named it "The Kamikaze Pilot".  God showed me an insight of many Christians'.  Their life of what is commonly known as a "self-righteous " or "pious " Christian.  Unfortunately,  so many Chri

  Hey there, and welcome to this new corner of my webpage.....For my first installment, I'm thinking about a parable God gave me a few years ago.  I named it "The Kamikaze Pilot".  God showed me an insight of many Christians'.  Their life of what is commonly known as a "self-righteous " or "pious " Christian.  Unfortunately,  so many Christians  go through  this exact thing, and they end up falling  away from God's blessing and forgiveness.   As you read this parable please read with all this knowledge, and please let me know what you think.  

The Parable of the  Kamikaze Christian

                                                         by Rodney D Roby  

     During World War II there was a kamikaze pilot from the Japanese Imperial Army.  He was a  loyal and devoted servant to the Emperor.  He was highly decorated and very devout.  This man had pledged his whole existence to t

The Parable of the  Kamikaze Christian

                                                         by Rodney D Roby  

     During World War II there was a kamikaze pilot from the Japanese Imperial Army.  He was a  loyal and devoted servant to the Emperor.  He was highly decorated and very devout.  This man had pledged his whole existence to the Emperor of Japan with his very life.  

     At that time the Emperor was God to the loyal Japanese people.  His word was absolute.  To  disrespect the Emperor in any way was death of not only yourself, but your whole family line.  

     In a heated battle in the South Pacific this kamikaze pilot was shot down.  Despite all his efforts  he was not able to crash his airplane into an American warship but went down in open water.  

    When he awoke he found himself on a beach of an unpopulated island.  He had been saved by  the tide.  He was scraped up, burned and bruised, but not broken. 

      As a true soldier he quickly became busy setting up for battle.  There was no one to be found on  this small island in the middle of this big, big ocean.  This loyalist prayed and meditated every day; that  he might be true to the Emperor.  Building booby traps all over the island and hunted wild boar.  He  even killed a lot of snakes.

     So he settled down into a cave, and made a home for himself.  He still prayed and meditated  every day and kept busy with whatever came along for him to do.  Still there was no one around, he  was completely isolated.  

     Soon his prayers and his meditation focused on his own needs and his desires.  On himself, not  on the wishes and desires of the Emperor.   

     For 30 years he was alone with no one to commune with.  There were times someone would  venture onto his island, maybe even get a little close.  But, you see, by now after all this time he felt  like he was a disgrace to the Emperor.  After all, he had pledged to die for him.  He had failed him.   Fighting many battles to the ultimate sacrifice, but failed to give his life to the Emperor.  He had lived  all this time, hidden and not in service.   

     The war was over, and the Emperor was gone, but his fear of ultimate humiliation was  overwhelming.  Loving people came to rescue him.  They could not convince him that he was saved.  

     He was a proud man.  After all, he was of the Emperor’s Imperial Army!  But fear of the  humiliation; and how could a dictorial Emperor ever forgive him?  What about his family? What would  happen?  

     The defeated soldier ran back into the jungle and fell into a trap that he himself had devised.  It  was a very long, painful and slow death. He refused all help.  After all, he was a kamikaze! 

I often feel like it was me that wrote Psalm 71. It follows my cry throughout my entire life. God is my very substance. I have cried out to Him since I was in the womb. My existence is entirely for God's existence. He, my Lord, is very much alive and He alone hears my cries. 

“O Lord, you alone are my hope. I’ve trusted you, O Lord, from 

I often feel like it was me that wrote Psalm 71. It follows my cry throughout my entire life. God is my very substance. I have cried out to Him since I was in the womb. My existence is entirely for God's existence. He, my Lord, is very much alive and He alone hears my cries. 

“O Lord, you alone are my hope. I’ve trusted you, O Lord, from childhood. Yes, you have been with me from birth; from my mother’s womb you have cared for me. No wonder I am always praising you!”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭71‬:‭5‬-‭6‬ ‭NLT‬‬

 Oh my Lord and my God!! You oh Lord are so Perfect...You are my Hope and you are my Sin Offering.

You have saved me and gave me life...you called me from my mother's womb and had me held and prayed over constantly  for the first week of my life..... you saved me and held my life to be lived as satin tried to kill me four times while I was

 Oh my Lord and my God!! You oh Lord are so Perfect...You are my Hope and you are my Sin Offering.

You have saved me and gave me life...you called me from my mother's womb and had me held and prayed over constantly  for the first week of my life..... you saved me and held my life to be lived as satin tried to kill me four times while I was still in the womb.  You chose plans and a name with your name on my forehead and You Spirit in my heart.  

Throughout my life you let me live and dabble in many things.  

You filled me with a huge gigantic desire for love.  I sought after love in so many places on my own but you always lead me back to you, my First Love.  

You filled my heart and soul with your presence and Love...you fill me with Hope and encouraged me with your life... you brought to me the love of the most wonderfully perfect women that could have ever walked the earth..... she radiated with your Holy Spirit  and glowed with your presence.   

You filled my heart with the love of a soul mate I had longed for my whole entire life.   

She encourages me with no words to be my best; for her yes.... but also for You, my First Love.  

You oh my God And Savior saved me from a horrible and awful life I was driving myself Into. 

You've filled my life with Your love and Your very precious and Holy presence. 

As I reflect this Christmas on you and all the multitude of gifts You have given me.... I know that the Greatest of them all is your forgiveness and your fulfillment of salvation and knowledge that I have a life everlasting with You my redeemer! I thank you so much for all you have done for me......You Lord Jesus  are the giver of my life.  I understand and know that my very existence  is really only for your existence.  You my Lord are my reason for life and living.  I love you so much I do not have the right or correct words to even say, except I love you because You first loved me. It most certainly is in Your Name Lord Jesus that I pray this...... Amen